I almost made a whole meeting without talking

Oh man, me and my big mouth!
I know it can get me into trouble - I tell myself to keep quiet.
But I guess I have a passion for doing the right thing (or maybe the need to be heard!)

So I got through 2 meetings today that tend to 'trigger' me (aka get me fired up) and made through both with only talking for a few minutes.

Great job and pat on the back for that!

I didn't manage to keep quiet for the whole meeting though....I guess 1 minute of trouble is better than 60! Hee-hee

I am glad it's Friday! I get to go home, close my door and be myself for a whole 2 days. Wonderful thought!

Too many Cooks in the kitchen....delivering a burnt cake

I have too many cooks in the kitchen.

Well, instead let's say there are too many chefs in the kitchen.

They all want to bark orders and wear the big hat.

But none want to be the sous chef, to prep the vegetables, to saute the meat.



And I'm in the middle trying to do many of the roles left in the wings:

• The job of the hostess - greeting and making people feel welcome to the restaurant


• The job of the waiter - serving all the customers what they ordered


• Sous chef - rallying the other cooks who just want to cook a great meal


• Kitchen rat - scurrying around hiding from the various chef's cleavers

Shouldn’t we all just focus on creating a great meal?

Why can't life be Black & White?

I am the type of person that grew up believing in right and wrong, black and white, a decision that is clear to be made.


But the older I get the amount of blur between these two becomes more and more. There is always a "if" and "in this situation" and the worse one..."depends"




aaarrgh! makes me feel very frustrated that life becomes much more complicated.

• Can you ever feel like you made the right decision?


• Can't every discussion just be debated back and forth forever?


• How can you ever truly make decisions that don't haunt you from the 'other' side of the decisions?
• How do you cherish and relish the life of a kaleidoscope of images and views and not get lost in the twisted chaotic nature?

Picture Source: Creative Glass Guild

Geocaching with animals - they just won't "moo've" off the road! http://tiny.cc/OhuFa

yeah I've moved into my new home...what a great feeling with so many boxes of my stuff around

Moved into my new home!

yummy - what a great feeling to move into your own home.
having my own 4 walls, my own door, my own little world that I can close out rest of the world and just enjoy the world I create.

it gives me a chance to breathe, relax, and be anything i want to be. sometimes that is blasting the techno music and dancing around naked. sometimes that is huddling in a corner under a blanket. sometimes that is doing little jobs around the house like painting, cleaning....but i love it.

have been living in an apartment for 6 months - other people's furniture - and just a couple of suitcases of my own stuff.

having the new home and all the memories arrive in boxes - the vacation in Kos, the zebra print that we bought on a whim, the pillow top mattress that you just melt in.....aaaah I just feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulder of waiting for this.

So I'm savoring that moment....yummy!

What a Week of Stress!

I had to ask myself the question this week....was I going to go crazy!?

• Closed my house purchase...all the final paperwork flurry
• Bank lost $000,000's in a **NEW** Online banking feature (obviously with glitches!)
• Work had 2 more organization changes with 2 more planned - so waiting it out as best as I can - but seeing it cause more chaos with people
• Managing the multitudes of opinions and 'feedback' on projects I am on with upcoming deadlines - whose do I follow when they are all key people in different ways?

All this resulted in a much higher level of stress than usual.

Then I found this picture showing the body's reactions to stress - I think this just made me stress out more!?

And I spend a lot of time self-analyzing, trying to understand the pieces and decisions and actions that make all this up to understand

• what can I do differently to not get as stressed?
• what amount of this is me, and what is out of my control?
• do I create this stress? how and why?
• will I ever be able to be the person that is 'the calm in the storm'?

And of course, asking myself these questions encourages or promotes the stress!! A Catch-22 indeed!